Mother Wounds and Rock Water Essence
***This blog was originally published on September 23, 2023. I mention my estranged relationship with my mother. Two months after publishing this post, I reconnected with her due to an unexpected message from my grandmother. Although this isn’t true reconciliation, we’re both willing to navigate an open line of communication. What an interesting perspective given that rock water essence, as you will learn by reading below, is about flexibility and receptivity. ***
Water from its natural source or a wellspring is considered to be healing water. That’s what rock water essence is, which I took prior to the dream I’m sharing below.
The Dream about my Mother Wound
It began with me feeding water to a white horse. I was an orphan hiding out in a farm. I was caught so my deeds were to be recorded in a “book of karma.” In this book, it was indicated that I was to be noted as a “healer” and my mother a “cheater.” An elderly man noticed a resemblance between me and my birth mother. I turn to the right and I see photos of my mother happy with the son she decided to keep.
In my dream, I never knew who my mother was however I immediately recognized this woman to be her. I felt a deep sense of shock and pain not only for seeing my birth mother for the first time, but also for remembering the betrayal and abandonment between us.
While I was dreaming of this emotional pain, I was also experiencing it in my physical body in real time. I believe this was a past life dream illustrating the karmic nature between my real life mother and I. Here’s why: my real life mother had incredibly symbolic dreams of each of her children before she gave birth to them. In her precognitive dream about me, I manifested as a snake who was defensive and didn’t want to be anywhere near her. However, I was willing to approach my aunt, her sister-in-law who she despises.
Parallels Between the Dream Symbolism and Real Life Facts
In real life, I got the curly hair gene from my father’s side of the family. I have another aunt from that family side who has auburn colored hair which I used to have as a child. My parents come from a farming province in Battambang, Cambodia. Had they not been forced out of their country due to the Khmer Rouge, I likely would’ve been a farm girl.
I fed a white horse in the dream and my mother’s zodiac sign is a horse whereas mine is a snake.
How I responded to my mother in her precognitive dream of me before I was born AND the betrayal and abandonment I felt in my current dream from being an orphan, is spot on to our current relationship as we are estranged and I have no intention of maintaining contact with her.
The child/son she decided to keep in the dream looks like a boy I’ve been receiving visions about since last July.
Healing Qualities of the Dream
The rock water essence is typically known for opening oneself up to flexibility and receptivity.
Based on this dream, I believe it’s about transformation and welcoming a sense of flow in one’s life. Lately, I’ve been having conversations with loved ones about my decision to not have a relationship with my mother. The dream was a way for me to identify the source of our karmic nature from a past life and how that has translated into this current life.
Whenever dreams are so emotionally intense that you can feel it in your body in physical reality, I believe that that’s the healing happening during the dream. It’s a release taking place in the dream realm that’s being felt in the earthly realm.